Oct. 1, 2019

Well I woke up crying. I tried to sleep last night and although exhausted struggled. After staying up until midnight to fully finish this last day that I spent with Josh (mostly). I new I needed some sleep but could. So instead, I hoped to watch old TV comedies that I’ve often enjoyed. I watched a couple episodes and the first time in fell asleep I work up and hour later the second 3.5 hrs later. Ugh 

The second time I woke, I was already starting to cry, reading encouraging post and text from friends who learn the news.

I thought my I had pre-grieved some but nope still not enough. This is going to be a long road.